Where to start...

It turns out I made a false claim in my first blog, regarding voting for either candidate. In the end, I voted McCain. There are a lot of thoughts and feelings I can't exactly place or describe, now that all is said and done. Mostly, I think I have too many thoughts about too many things...hence the joyous existence of this blog.
I guess my first response last night, and even tonight is outrage. Let me clarify, I feel outraged that despite my several intentional initiatives to get to the bottom of the hogwash in this campaign-I still got duped in the end. I was pointed towards an article that outlined Obama's extremely pro-abortion intentions. It's one thing to let it remain legal, it's another to promise to federally fund it and advocate that fetus' surviving abortion should be killed because their fate was already decided...with a side of repealing partial-birth ban. Part of me is taken aback by the high skill level of his rhetoric and remarkable ability to spin everything he says to the degree that so many millions vote for him without even realizing what they are really voting for---and I'm not even talking things he's hiding, I'm talking things he's said he'd do all along that the media convienently "left out" of the picture. Don't get me wrong, I've never trusted the media when it comes to Democrats/Liberals especially--but they've taken it to a whole new level. I have no doubt that I could've done better at researching, that my passion regarding abortion is lacking, but I also feel like the effort is lacking hope, at this point in my life. I'm sure I'll 'get back on the horse,' but I'm definately going to take a time-out to develop my strategy more.
My second response was anger at myself and, later, ignorant Christians. It's such a struggle for me to simply "fight against abortion." I see what a spectacle the issue has been made with little headway in the actual solution department, I see Christians ignorant of issues outside of abortion...making abortion the only issue and pointing fingers at Christians who don't choose their political candidate based solely on abortion---and somewhere along the way of me fighting against those things, I forgot to actually fight against abortion. There are very, very few things in the world that have done more damage than ignorant Christians. That's a broad statement, that could probably be made broader and argued to death--but right now I just want to bitch about our idiocy. The great thing about politics is that it's all for one, and one for all. Meaning, we're all in this together--in guilt or in joy. There's no "them" or "us"--the bottom line is that we've all got our hand in the cookie jar.
Am I concerned that the Lord isn't in control or able to provide good things for his children these next four years? No. I am heartbroken at the reality of where we are as a people. I am sorry for him. I'm sorry that I've contributed to this, and that we are so fallen.
It'll be interesting to see how the next four years go. I feel like I have no leg to stand on, and that my best bet would be to put my head between my legs and tell my butt "I might have to kiss you goodbye soon." In the meantime, I'm making it my priority to find helpful sources of information for us and to encourage you to pray for wisdom. For starters, I found a book entitled "The 15 biggest lies in Politics" by Major Garrett and Timothy Penny--highly recommend it, very enlightening.
In other news, I really enjoyed my first went-to-the-polls voting experience---I went at 5:55 AM and was one of at least 40---and it was double that by the time I left at 6:25.