Here's to having Internet!!

There have been quite a few instances in my life in which I've considered how I have come to have the particular friends I have.  All of the "social skills teacher" thoughts in me say "Well, a true friend is honest and kind and has similar interests and makes positive choices and you will try to be that person's friend, etc."  Pssht!  In fact, of all of my closest friends--I can recall only 1 that I was intentional in pursuing friendship--everyone else I didn't feel like we were likely to be friends--too different, separate circles, or I thought they were stuck up (Ruthie Krueger).  But somewhere along the way, we became friends---and I can't imagine having better.  (Okay, that was a bit mushy, I lied--but it's just true)  Though it may seem as though I've decided to blog about how dysfunctional my friends are, it is quite the contrary.  And I'm not getting "mushy" anymore either! 

I find now that I'm old enough to have had friendships for a substantial amount of time and with a certain amount of maturity---and even though most of my friendships now aren't as exciting and emotional and full of adventure and gossip and memorable quotations as they used to be---in fact, quite the opposite--I enjoy the different dynamic--to a varying degree in every friendship there has developed a kind of 'ebb and flow' that comes from knowing each other well, deeply, having a past history.....and we appear resigned/comfortable now to our roles as individuals and in our friendship.  You've become comfortable with who you are, and I as well....that is good.  

In a similar fashion, I've come to feel this way in regards to my relationship with the Lord.  So much back and forth, emotion--every kind, history, knowing me in entirety--infinitely more than any other friendship, naturally--and how nice it feels to be moving into a calmness, a rhythm of loving and being loved, a deeper/more meaningful understanding of him, others, myself---an acceptance of things as they are and with that a renewed desire to just be in friendship with him.