It always feels nice to give adequate words to...whatever.

I was writing an email to a dear friend tonight and really liked what came out and wanted to share it. It feels nice to have something flow out of what feels so broken this week.

I don't think I work with those who need most deeply... I think I've chosen a vocation that exemplifies what we are to be to each other in every relationship, and that my current career serves a population that is uniquely poor by monetary and cultural standards...And more often than not, it has become a journey of self examination and forgiveness more so than focusing on what I can say or do that will lead others to hope. My suffering, less often than it could, reminds me of how the Lord has loved me and continues to be sovereign. Loving others doesn't mean others will change, we've certainly demonstrated that for the Lord...but in growing in our love for the Lord and our effort to please him more and more, we hopefully become people who exhibit an ability to be loved entirely and love entirely without having earned or needing to justify a reason to be loved...and through such give no credence to the cares of this world in our life, in our relationships.

I don't want it to be said of me that I was willing to enter the lives of the lost, but that I was willing to continually enter my lost life, to chose to love my Lord, Jesus Christ son of God Almighty who died for the sins of the world and rose again on the third day that I might have eternal life.